Sometimes i have mornings so beautiful i can't breathe;
nights so terrible i doubt humanity has a sunrise.

Music vibrates me; microwaving a pulse into my soul like shock paddles.
(it's not the voice, the reason behind the voice, or what the voice wears.)
Voices resonate my soul, language beyond definition.

However, the moments that make me feel ALIVE
are endorphin rushes, adrenal beating heart quivering with life & anticipation.

its a rush of blood to the head, a sudden blue-iris pupil dilation, spreading bodily warmth.
like the moment i fell in love with him, forever. indescribably binding & perfect.

logic will break your heart if you define it, life will destroy you if you let it.
i make my own way; destroying, rebuilding, living, loving, dying.

Needing outsiders less and less; retreating to a secret garden of love and joy.
I am and will be destroyed by myself alone.

No one shall take from me myself, for that is all i have.