You Won't See Me-

Well, I hope you won't if I don't want you to.
and that is the point if I block you.
in HS, having a post-ugly Duckling and a Swan complex, socializing was difficult.
I was a self-proclaimed Existential at 14;
I poo-poo'ed Shakespeare after his complete works took me two weeks.
not that it matters what i did, or how i did it, but my life is full of unique and personal accomplishments.
when my peers became rivals they soon tried to take from me fashion and personal materials that made me unique and desirable.
maybe it was the clothes or the trips or the boys or the look and talk that i have and always have they thought could make them as good as me.
i don't think I'm better than them,
I'm better at being Gina.


so don't pretend you know me if you don't.
don't say you believe the same religion as i did as a creative outlet.
don't buy the same clothes, or talk the same, or type the same.
don't fuck the guys i've been with just to get near me, or to get back at me.
don't cut your hair like mine, or style yourself like me.
don't assume you are worth more in people's lives than you are.
don't think i hate you or care about you or want to see you,
all you are is a demon.jpg haunting lives like a shadow picking up trash and calling it lost treasure.
everything is past and you are free,
life is to live and love
and anything and everything.


i don't care who you are or what you do just as long as my life is the same as it was today, and yesterday and last week, and that it goes on happy and un-tormented like the universe will allow.
did you hear me? you are free! go now, live for yourself! be who you want regardless of what ghosts echo.